"Many of us believe we have as much of God as we want right now, a reasonable portion of God among all the other things in our lives. Most of our thoughts are centered on the money we want to make, the body we aspire to have, the spouse we want to marry, the kind of person we want to become… But the fact is that nothing should concern us more than our relationship with God; it’s about eternity, and nothing compares with that. God is not someone who can be tacked on to our lives."
//Francis Chan; Crazy Love
Today, I'm reminded again that there are so many more things waiting for me beyond this earth and this life. That truly, there can be nothing else that I desire in the world, besides you. You are all I need, all I long for, all that will sustain me. I've lost count of the times I've been distracted, misled, sidetracked but again I will say to you;
Don't be tacked onto the fringe of my life, come and be the centre of it all.
"I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God. For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation,
He has covered me with the robe of righteousness; As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the earth brings forth its bud, as the garden causes the things that are sown in it to spring forth, so the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations." //Isaiah 61:10-11 (NKJV Version)
One of the most touching testimonies I've ever heard. The song at 7:58 is really touching and though I don't know understand all of the lyrics, I really think it transcends language to touch the soul. My sisters have been trying for the past week to get the harmonies right, but they're still not there yet, looking forward to their version too haha.
"But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain." //1 Corinthians 15:10 (NKJV Version)
The past few months has truly been an exciting journey for me, one that has been so different from the past thirteen years of my walk with him. In the midst of it all, I am truly thankful that he has taken me from the depths that I was in and restored me. And today, he allowed me to receive one of the most amazing and affirmative news I've ever received in my life :)
Indeed, you are the one who moves all things into place, the one who heals the broken and raise up the called. I know that nothing is settled yet and that any transition will probably take some time, but I'm excited all the same for what has been proclaimed over my life. I still have time to mull over it and prayerfully consider the opportunity that has been given to me, but for now it's really been hard to contain my joy!
At the same time, I'm aware that there are costs to count in this venture. That this decision means a commitment to invest into other people's lives, and that this will take a lot out of me. I know also that I'm at an important crossroads in my life, and this decision will probably affect the course of my career, family and life in the future.
But I remember also, that it is your grace that has made me who I am today. And that your grace is not just going to stop with me, but it will overflow into other people's lives as well. So if I do make this decision, I want you to know that your grace towards me has not been in vain.
"Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life... Let your eyes look straight ahead;
fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not turn to the right or the left."
//Proverbs 4:24-26
I was taking a different flight from my friends on my way from HK back to SG so before I boarded, I had some time to sit down and reflect on the 5 days we spent in HK basically just shopping, eating and chilling out together. When I opened up my bible, funnily it fell open to Proverbs 4:11-24, so I read it through once. And for some reason, the verse about guarding your heart above all else really touched me deeply. Then without knowing why, I took out my iPhone and clicked on my tumblr app and lo and behold, the first thing to pop out on my dashboard was the lovely pic above! Then and there, I knew for sure that he was telling me something about guarding my heart.
So I quietly asked, what are you telling me to guard my heart against?
And the words were clear. Guard against judging other people based on how they act, look and speak. Guard against glorifying yourself. Guard against pursuing the things of the world that do not last. Guard against the different things that will pull you to the left and to the right when you enter the working world.
More amazingly, when I got onto the plane and I was deciding what movie to watch, I came across an interesting synopsis of this Korean courtroom drama called '부러진 화살' or Unbowed. And when I watched it, I think I kinda understood more fully what he was trying to tell me. Basically, the movie is based on the real life story of a Math professor who is apparently wrongly accused of attacking a judge with a crossbow and how he and his lawyer battle against the Korean legal system to get him a fair trial.
I think the movie showed me a glimpse of me the decisions I can choose to make as a lawyer when I go out to work in the future, and how the decisions I make can affect other people's lives. And just before I go into Part B and take the Bar, I think it's just such a timely reminder of how I need to fence up my heart and protect it well, how I need to continuously go back to the place of grace to find strength, and how I need to fix my eyes on the things that are eternal.
"Many of us believe we have as much of God as we want right now, a reasonable portion of God among all the other things in our lives. Most of our thoughts are centered on the money we want to make, the body we aspire to have, the spouse we want to marry, the kind of person we want to become… But the fact is that nothing should concern us more than our relationship with God; it’s about eternity, and nothing compares with that. God is not someone who can be tacked on to our lives."
//Francis Chan; Crazy Love
Today, I'm reminded again that there are so many more things waiting for me beyond this earth and this life. That truly, there can be nothing else that I desire in the world, besides you. You are all I need, all I long for, all that will sustain me. I've lost count of the times I've been distracted, misled, sidetracked but again I will say to you;
Don't be tacked onto the fringe of my life, come and be the centre of it all.
"I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God. For He has clothed me with the garments of salvation,
He has covered me with the robe of righteousness; As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the earth brings forth its bud, as the garden causes the things that are sown in it to spring forth, so the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations." //Isaiah 61:10-11 (NKJV Version)
One of the most touching testimonies I've ever heard. The song at 7:58 is really touching and though I don't know understand all of the lyrics, I really think it transcends language to touch the soul. My sisters have been trying for the past week to get the harmonies right, but they're still not there yet, looking forward to their version too haha.
"But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain." //1 Corinthians 15:10 (NKJV Version)
The past few months has truly been an exciting journey for me, one that has been so different from the past thirteen years of my walk with him. In the midst of it all, I am truly thankful that he has taken me from the depths that I was in and restored me. And today, he allowed me to receive one of the most amazing and affirmative news I've ever received in my life :)
Indeed, you are the one who moves all things into place, the one who heals the broken and raise up the called. I know that nothing is settled yet and that any transition will probably take some time, but I'm excited all the same for what has been proclaimed over my life. I still have time to mull over it and prayerfully consider the opportunity that has been given to me, but for now it's really been hard to contain my joy!
At the same time, I'm aware that there are costs to count in this venture. That this decision means a commitment to invest into other people's lives, and that this will take a lot out of me. I know also that I'm at an important crossroads in my life, and this decision will probably affect the course of my career, family and life in the future.
But I remember also, that it is your grace that has made me who I am today. And that your grace is not just going to stop with me, but it will overflow into other people's lives as well. So if I do make this decision, I want you to know that your grace towards me has not been in vain.
"Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life... Let your eyes look straight ahead;
fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not turn to the right or the left."
//Proverbs 4:24-26
I was taking a different flight from my friends on my way from HK back to SG so before I boarded, I had some time to sit down and reflect on the 5 days we spent in HK basically just shopping, eating and chilling out together. When I opened up my bible, funnily it fell open to Proverbs 4:11-24, so I read it through once. And for some reason, the verse about guarding your heart above all else really touched me deeply. Then without knowing why, I took out my iPhone and clicked on my tumblr app and lo and behold, the first thing to pop out on my dashboard was the lovely pic above! Then and there, I knew for sure that he was telling me something about guarding my heart.
So I quietly asked, what are you telling me to guard my heart against?
And the words were clear. Guard against judging other people based on how they act, look and speak. Guard against glorifying yourself. Guard against pursuing the things of the world that do not last. Guard against the different things that will pull you to the left and to the right when you enter the working world.
More amazingly, when I got onto the plane and I was deciding what movie to watch, I came across an interesting synopsis of this Korean courtroom drama called '부러진 화살' or Unbowed. And when I watched it, I think I kinda understood more fully what he was trying to tell me. Basically, the movie is based on the real life story of a Math professor who is apparently wrongly accused of attacking a judge with a crossbow and how he and his lawyer battle against the Korean legal system to get him a fair trial.
I think the movie showed me a glimpse of me the decisions I can choose to make as a lawyer when I go out to work in the future, and how the decisions I make can affect other people's lives. And just before I go into Part B and take the Bar, I think it's just such a timely reminder of how I need to fence up my heart and protect it well, how I need to continuously go back to the place of grace to find strength, and how I need to fix my eyes on the things that are eternal.
