//When I was all messed up and I heard opera in my head Your love was a light bulb hanging over my bed - Ultraviolet by U2 twice this week, he has come under the cover of night to stand at the bottom of my house. the first time, he brought me a laptop bag and the second time, he brought me chocolates. almost everyday for the past three weeks, even when I was in macau, we've had telephone conversations that stretch on into the early morning.
and i've never talked so much about how i feel before in my life.
this time, it feels real. this time, I don’t have to play the hiding game and I don’t have to beg for affection. this time, he actually brings me places to get to know who we are. and I remember what I said to my friends, that I’ve felt actually real happy for the first time in months.
but, at the same time, it scares the shit out of me. to fall into something as deep and unfathomable as this. because I know what I would say if I was watching from the other side. because I know some of what Jojo says is right. because I'm gonna have to remix my heart, one song at a time.
//When I was all messed up and I heard opera in my head Your love was a light bulb hanging over my bed - Ultraviolet by U2 twice this week, he has come under the cover of night to stand at the bottom of my house. the first time, he brought me a laptop bag and the second time, he brought me chocolates. almost everyday for the past three weeks, even when I was in macau, we've had telephone conversations that stretch on into the early morning.
and i've never talked so much about how i feel before in my life.
this time, it feels real. this time, I don’t have to play the hiding game and I don’t have to beg for affection. this time, he actually brings me places to get to know who we are. and I remember what I said to my friends, that I’ve felt actually real happy for the first time in months.
but, at the same time, it scares the shit out of me. to fall into something as deep and unfathomable as this. because I know what I would say if I was watching from the other side. because I know some of what Jojo says is right. because I'm gonna have to remix my heart, one song at a time.
