"What do you think? I'm not a starfish or a pepper tree. I'm a living, breathing human being. Of course I've been in love.""
//Haruki Murakami; Kafka on the Shore
If moving my fringe half an inch more to the left can generate so many responses, I wonder what would happen if I changed the parting of my fringe? Okayy, random. But seriously, I can't believe the difference that comes from simply moving a few strands of hair from the right to the left. Haha, now that we've got the chance to go for Vis East, super excited. Like Jo said, we'll try to be big fish in small ponds. Little Davids swinging stones at Goliaths. Still should have googled the meaning of IHL and Vis East before realising that we signed ourselves up for commercial arbitration and SOGA. Adeline Chong would have a good laugh if she knew that I chucked all my SOGA notes into the recycling bin after Contract II exams.
"I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be; whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on our minds' door at 4 AM of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends. We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forget who we were."
//Joan Didion; Slouching Towards Bethlehem: Essays
I suppose the rules are there for a reason. People who know better have been through it, if they say the game is played this way, who am I to say otherwise? It's just that sometimes I know the rules are crap, and if we wanted to, if we could, we would realise that nothing that was worth it was played by the rules. Haha, I am paranoia girl at her best, always ready to jump to the worst conclusion in a single leap. Maybe I just need to sit still and listen to the advice I give to other people lah, be still, be still I always say, but so damn difficult to practise in reality. Oh wells, like WL and I concluded, less is more, less will always be more. It will be worthwhile when it arrives and you least expect it.
On a happy note, I'm so so glad that everything turned out fine in the end! All the hard work was worth it seriously just to receive that email haha, thanks to all those who encouraged me, who brought me dinner, who put up with my nonsense. Thank you for being there with me all the way and more.
"Meet me where the sea touches the sky; Meet me where the world begins."
//Jennifer Donnelly; The Winter Rose
Strictly speaking, false dilemmas arise in situations in which only two alternatives are considered when in fact, there's a whole wide range of alternatives awaiting consideration. Of these, the kind most commonly engaged in would be black-and-white thinking. And a good and super realistic example would be me experiencing boundless optimism when things are going swimmingly and falling into utter despair at the first sight of a bloody setback. Haha, what else can it arise from other than our endless need to categorise everything and anything into extremes? Oh well, at the very least, I've been at both ends of the spectrum this week haha. In all still, I'm so glad that moots is over, so excited that we all went for law musical, so over the moon that things are back on track.
15 September 2010
;14:33 "When you're young, you think everything you do is disposable. You move from now to now, crumpling time up in your hands, tossing it away. You're your own speeding car. You think you can get rid of things, and people too - leave them behind. You don't yet know about the habit they have, of coming back."
//Margaret Atwood; The Blind Assassin
Haha, everytime we do it, we ask ourselves why we put ourselves through this kind of torture. Written memorial down, one more to go. In three days, we don't ever have to see Scholben or her photograph again. Can't believe we just sat there from 3pm all the way to 12am just to get our memorial out. I think I better keep this in mind the next time we feel like we wanna take part in moots. Once this is over, we're either bingeing on Wendy's or KFC's, take your pick. And we should probably pay a visit to K-box hahaha.
12 September 2010
;14:17 "Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."
//Edgar Allan Poe
Once week 6 is over, I'm just going to take the first monday I have and sleep it away. Or alternatively, get a book and chill the whole day away with a cup of tea on the balcony. Or I could make the effort to go out and browse the knitwear that I wanna get haha. Anything I do will be way more fun than the stuff I've been doing in school. The past two weeks have been awful. Haven't gotten more than 4 hours of sleep each day haha, no idea how Jojo manages to do it seriously. I wish school terms had more weeks, so you could really read and get into the topics, instead of just rushing through our readings every week, oh well. Sometimes feel like we're mugging just for exams, instead of mugging for the sake of learning.
"Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart."
//Erick S Gray; Nasty Girls
If one of us just was able to make the first move, to be able to get past all that stands between us, to take a step forward, to give a definitive answer, maybe maybe it would save us all the dilemma and the conflict and the confusion. Until then, where do we go from here on? Until then, what do I do with all that I have been given?
"Deep grief sometimes is almost like a specific location, a coordinate on a map of time. When you are standing in that forest of sorrow, you cannot imagine that you could ever find your way to a better place. But if someone can assure you that they themselves have stood in that same place, and now have moved on, sometimes this will bring hope."
//Elizabeth Gilbert; Eat Pray Love
In some way or another, we are all shape-shifters. We take on personalities to suit the people whom we come into contact with and we shed them at will when we need to. It could be just the way we are. Or it could be that we never are really able to find people who understand the core of who we are at the bottom of it all, when everything else that doesn't really matter is stripped away. But then again, how can we blame each other for that? Who can really distinguish between the sea and its reflection? Or tell the difference between stories and the truth?
The truth is that we are pilgrims, not even migrants, in this land. We are people of eternity. Maybe that's why we never feel quite at home until we finally find our way back home.
"What do you think? I'm not a starfish or a pepper tree. I'm a living, breathing human being. Of course I've been in love.""
//Haruki Murakami; Kafka on the Shore
If moving my fringe half an inch more to the left can generate so many responses, I wonder what would happen if I changed the parting of my fringe? Okayy, random. But seriously, I can't believe the difference that comes from simply moving a few strands of hair from the right to the left. Haha, now that we've got the chance to go for Vis East, super excited. Like Jo said, we'll try to be big fish in small ponds. Little Davids swinging stones at Goliaths. Still should have googled the meaning of IHL and Vis East before realising that we signed ourselves up for commercial arbitration and SOGA. Adeline Chong would have a good laugh if she knew that I chucked all my SOGA notes into the recycling bin after Contract II exams.
"I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be; whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on our minds' door at 4 AM of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends. We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forget who we were."
//Joan Didion; Slouching Towards Bethlehem: Essays
I suppose the rules are there for a reason. People who know better have been through it, if they say the game is played this way, who am I to say otherwise? It's just that sometimes I know the rules are crap, and if we wanted to, if we could, we would realise that nothing that was worth it was played by the rules. Haha, I am paranoia girl at her best, always ready to jump to the worst conclusion in a single leap. Maybe I just need to sit still and listen to the advice I give to other people lah, be still, be still I always say, but so damn difficult to practise in reality. Oh wells, like WL and I concluded, less is more, less will always be more. It will be worthwhile when it arrives and you least expect it.
On a happy note, I'm so so glad that everything turned out fine in the end! All the hard work was worth it seriously just to receive that email haha, thanks to all those who encouraged me, who brought me dinner, who put up with my nonsense. Thank you for being there with me all the way and more.
"Meet me where the sea touches the sky; Meet me where the world begins."
//Jennifer Donnelly; The Winter Rose
Strictly speaking, false dilemmas arise in situations in which only two alternatives are considered when in fact, there's a whole wide range of alternatives awaiting consideration. Of these, the kind most commonly engaged in would be black-and-white thinking. And a good and super realistic example would be me experiencing boundless optimism when things are going swimmingly and falling into utter despair at the first sight of a bloody setback. Haha, what else can it arise from other than our endless need to categorise everything and anything into extremes? Oh well, at the very least, I've been at both ends of the spectrum this week haha. In all still, I'm so glad that moots is over, so excited that we all went for law musical, so over the moon that things are back on track.
"When you're young, you think everything you do is disposable. You move from now to now, crumpling time up in your hands, tossing it away. You're your own speeding car. You think you can get rid of things, and people too - leave them behind. You don't yet know about the habit they have, of coming back."
//Margaret Atwood; The Blind Assassin
Haha, everytime we do it, we ask ourselves why we put ourselves through this kind of torture. Written memorial down, one more to go. In three days, we don't ever have to see Scholben or her photograph again. Can't believe we just sat there from 3pm all the way to 12am just to get our memorial out. I think I better keep this in mind the next time we feel like we wanna take part in moots. Once this is over, we're either bingeing on Wendy's or KFC's, take your pick. And we should probably pay a visit to K-box hahaha.
"Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night."
//Edgar Allan Poe
Once week 6 is over, I'm just going to take the first monday I have and sleep it away. Or alternatively, get a book and chill the whole day away with a cup of tea on the balcony. Or I could make the effort to go out and browse the knitwear that I wanna get haha. Anything I do will be way more fun than the stuff I've been doing in school. The past two weeks have been awful. Haven't gotten more than 4 hours of sleep each day haha, no idea how Jojo manages to do it seriously. I wish school terms had more weeks, so you could really read and get into the topics, instead of just rushing through our readings every week, oh well. Sometimes feel like we're mugging just for exams, instead of mugging for the sake of learning.
"Whatever you give a woman, she's going to multiply. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart."
//Erick S Gray; Nasty Girls
If one of us just was able to make the first move, to be able to get past all that stands between us, to take a step forward, to give a definitive answer, maybe maybe it would save us all the dilemma and the conflict and the confusion. Until then, where do we go from here on? Until then, what do I do with all that I have been given?
"Deep grief sometimes is almost like a specific location, a coordinate on a map of time. When you are standing in that forest of sorrow, you cannot imagine that you could ever find your way to a better place. But if someone can assure you that they themselves have stood in that same place, and now have moved on, sometimes this will bring hope."
//Elizabeth Gilbert; Eat Pray Love
In some way or another, we are all shape-shifters. We take on personalities to suit the people whom we come into contact with and we shed them at will when we need to. It could be just the way we are. Or it could be that we never are really able to find people who understand the core of who we are at the bottom of it all, when everything else that doesn't really matter is stripped away. But then again, how can we blame each other for that? Who can really distinguish between the sea and its reflection? Or tell the difference between stories and the truth?
The truth is that we are pilgrims, not even migrants, in this land. We are people of eternity. Maybe that's why we never feel quite at home until we finally find our way back home.
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