"I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be; whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on our minds' door at 4 AM of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends. We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forget who we were."
//Joan Didion; Slouching Towards Bethlehem: Essays
I suppose the rules are there for a reason. People who know better have been through it, if they say the game is played this way, who am I to say otherwise? It's just that sometimes I know the rules are crap, and if we wanted to, if we could, we would realise that nothing that was worth it was played by the rules. Haha, I am paranoia girl at her best, always ready to jump to the worst conclusion in a single leap. Maybe I just need to sit still and listen to the advice I give to other people lah, be still, be still I always say, but so damn difficult to practise in reality. Oh wells, like WL and I concluded, less is more, less will always be more. It will be worthwhile when it arrives and you least expect it.
On a happy note, I'm so so glad that everything turned out fine in the end! All the hard work was worth it seriously just to receive that email haha, thanks to all those who encouraged me, who brought me dinner, who put up with my nonsense. Thank you for being there with me all the way and more.
"I think we are well advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be; whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on our minds' door at 4 AM of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends. We forget all too soon the things we thought we could never forget. We forget the loves and the betrayals alike, forget what we whispered and what we screamed, forget who we were."
//Joan Didion; Slouching Towards Bethlehem: Essays
I suppose the rules are there for a reason. People who know better have been through it, if they say the game is played this way, who am I to say otherwise? It's just that sometimes I know the rules are crap, and if we wanted to, if we could, we would realise that nothing that was worth it was played by the rules. Haha, I am paranoia girl at her best, always ready to jump to the worst conclusion in a single leap. Maybe I just need to sit still and listen to the advice I give to other people lah, be still, be still I always say, but so damn difficult to practise in reality. Oh wells, like WL and I concluded, less is more, less will always be more. It will be worthwhile when it arrives and you least expect it.
On a happy note, I'm so so glad that everything turned out fine in the end! All the hard work was worth it seriously just to receive that email haha, thanks to all those who encouraged me, who brought me dinner, who put up with my nonsense. Thank you for being there with me all the way and more.
