"It was him not fighting for me. I gave him the ultimatum and he let me walk away. I didn't want a life separate from Luke, and that's all he could give me. It's like Luke is driving a car and I just want to be in the passenger seat. He's locked the door and I have to hold onto the bumper. I am not asking him to open the door, just leave it unlocked and say come in, but he didn't do that. So I am hanging onto the bumper and life goes on and the car goes on, and I get really badly bruised and I'm hitting potholes. And it hurts, it really hurts. So yesterday, I had to let go of the bumper. Because it hurts too much." //Lorelai; Gilmore Girls
we're heading for the last paper of the term! it's exciting cos CLS doesn't require a lot of memory work but the bad thing is that it requires you to impress Schubbs which is darn hard to do haha. I've kind of decided to just settle for as good a mark as I can get since all the legal philosophy mumbo jumbo really messes with my head. right now, I'm just looking forward to kboxxxx cos haven't gone in a while, got a lot of songs I want to sing!
had a nice 4 hour long lunch with jo, vk and emmanuel at plaza sing yesterday, just lazing around and talking about stuff. and we got onto this topic about the gang rape case in the news recently. and how it would be like if we were arguing for the defendants. it's kind of conflicting cos vk says you can't make good arguments unless you're convicted that your client is innocent and you want to do your best for him/her, and what happens if as the trial continues, the evidence starts telling the story that your client is guilty? you must give your client the best yet you've gotta deal with the conviction of your own conscience. after absorbing all that, I think I'm convinced that if I go into law after graduation, I want to do something that impacts lives directly. hmm, not sure where that hope will bring me yet haha! but I guess that's what keeps me going in law school, despite having no life on weekends and doing hours and hours of readings.
just heard about the new SAL program they're having to introduce students to the real life of lawyers so that students don't get seduced by the glamour of being a lawyer and drop out later. apparently, the singapore legal system suffers from a high rate of attrition aka people dropping out cos law in practice didn't match their expectations. kinda reminds me of what CSY said, that you need to know why you're in it otherwise you'll burn out cos there's nothing to carry you through anymore. I think I know why I'm in it and I hope I remember the reason even after I've been it in for years :)
this past week has its share of ups and downs, kinda like a wave haha. having to go through life the way I did before all this happened. I feel like I took my chance and I loved with all my heart. I fought for it, I gave my all and it feels like one day I woke up and realised that something happened. what that something is, I may never know. there's still a chance for change, but I'm not pinning my hopes on that, I'm waiting on God for the answer.
"It was him not fighting for me. I gave him the ultimatum and he let me walk away. I didn't want a life separate from Luke, and that's all he could give me. It's like Luke is driving a car and I just want to be in the passenger seat. He's locked the door and I have to hold onto the bumper. I am not asking him to open the door, just leave it unlocked and say come in, but he didn't do that. So I am hanging onto the bumper and life goes on and the car goes on, and I get really badly bruised and I'm hitting potholes. And it hurts, it really hurts. So yesterday, I had to let go of the bumper. Because it hurts too much." //Lorelai; Gilmore Girls
we're heading for the last paper of the term! it's exciting cos CLS doesn't require a lot of memory work but the bad thing is that it requires you to impress Schubbs which is darn hard to do haha. I've kind of decided to just settle for as good a mark as I can get since all the legal philosophy mumbo jumbo really messes with my head. right now, I'm just looking forward to kboxxxx cos haven't gone in a while, got a lot of songs I want to sing!
had a nice 4 hour long lunch with jo, vk and emmanuel at plaza sing yesterday, just lazing around and talking about stuff. and we got onto this topic about the gang rape case in the news recently. and how it would be like if we were arguing for the defendants. it's kind of conflicting cos vk says you can't make good arguments unless you're convicted that your client is innocent and you want to do your best for him/her, and what happens if as the trial continues, the evidence starts telling the story that your client is guilty? you must give your client the best yet you've gotta deal with the conviction of your own conscience. after absorbing all that, I think I'm convinced that if I go into law after graduation, I want to do something that impacts lives directly. hmm, not sure where that hope will bring me yet haha! but I guess that's what keeps me going in law school, despite having no life on weekends and doing hours and hours of readings.
just heard about the new SAL program they're having to introduce students to the real life of lawyers so that students don't get seduced by the glamour of being a lawyer and drop out later. apparently, the singapore legal system suffers from a high rate of attrition aka people dropping out cos law in practice didn't match their expectations. kinda reminds me of what CSY said, that you need to know why you're in it otherwise you'll burn out cos there's nothing to carry you through anymore. I think I know why I'm in it and I hope I remember the reason even after I've been it in for years :)
this past week has its share of ups and downs, kinda like a wave haha. having to go through life the way I did before all this happened. I feel like I took my chance and I loved with all my heart. I fought for it, I gave my all and it feels like one day I woke up and realised that something happened. what that something is, I may never know. there's still a chance for change, but I'm not pinning my hopes on that, I'm waiting on God for the answer.
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