"Come, and let us return to the Lord; For He has torn, but He will heal us; He has stricken, but He will bind us up. After two days, He will revive us; On the third day, He will raise up, so that we may live in His sight. Let us know, let us pursue the knowledge of the Lord. His going forth is established as the morning; He will come to us like the rain. Like the latter and former rain to the earth."   
//Hosea 6:1-3 (NKJV Version)


The past two weeks have really been a time of testing and learning. That when I thought I was helping someone else's situation, God was actually using it to teach me more about the condition of my heart and the things that I needed to deal with before I could reach out to minister to someone who was facing a similar issue. 

The thought of that just reminds me of how constantly I need to keep watch on the emotions and thoughts that pass through my heart, that even when no one else knows what I am going through, God sees and God knows. And that it becomes very important that I need to commit everything I do into His hands, telling Him to take away the motives that are impure and make my heart pure as gold, so that I can serve Him from a place of humility and surrender.

And I'm learning each and every day, that so many things need to be committed fully into His hands before I can step into leading others. That my affection, identity and providence needs to be vested completely into God's hands and not be left to man. If not, I would be serving simply to gain companionship, or worse, to satisfy my own very human desires to be loved and esteemed by others. Time and again, you remind me that at the end of everything, you are my very great reward. Nothing else that I get out of serving is better than you. 

So once again, remind me that it's all about you and all this is for you.
It's not about me, as if you should do things my way.
You are alone are God, and I surrender. 

"Come, and let us return to the Lord; For He has torn, but He will heal us; He has stricken, but He will bind us up. After two days, He will revive us; On the third day, He will raise up, so that we may live in His sight. Let us know, let us pursue the knowledge of the Lord. His going forth is established as the morning; He will come to us like the rain. Like the latter and former rain to the earth."   
//Hosea 6:1-3 (NKJV Version)


The past two weeks have really been a time of testing and learning. That when I thought I was helping someone else's situation, God was actually using it to teach me more about the condition of my heart and the things that I needed to deal with before I could reach out to minister to someone who was facing a similar issue. 

The thought of that just reminds me of how constantly I need to keep watch on the emotions and thoughts that pass through my heart, that even when no one else knows what I am going through, God sees and God knows. And that it becomes very important that I need to commit everything I do into His hands, telling Him to take away the motives that are impure and make my heart pure as gold, so that I can serve Him from a place of humility and surrender.

And I'm learning each and every day, that so many things need to be committed fully into His hands before I can step into leading others. That my affection, identity and providence needs to be vested completely into God's hands and not be left to man. If not, I would be serving simply to gain companionship, or worse, to satisfy my own very human desires to be loved and esteemed by others. Time and again, you remind me that at the end of everything, you are my very great reward. Nothing else that I get out of serving is better than you. 

So once again, remind me that it's all about you and all this is for you.
It's not about me, as if you should do things my way.
You are alone are God, and I surrender.