"Just remember that the things you put into your head are there forever," he said. "You might want to think about that."
"You forget some things, dont you?" "Yes. You forget what you want to remember and you remember what you want to forget.""
//Cormac Mccarthy; On the Road
This week is really a crunch week like nothing I've experienced before. One research paper and one presentation deadline followed by another research paper and written submissions deadlines and a final year exam in the following week. It's like everyone decided to hit you the hardest when you're already down haha. I don't mind the work actually, but I really have a thing against compiling presentation slides! And not because it's hard to do, but because I'm a little OCD about slides. And once I start, I can't stop and I end up spending hours on something that will probably flash past everyone in a few minutes argh.
Haha but I'm trying my best to find joy in everything I do also, cos I know once the term is over, we'll look back and be amazed that the rubber band has stretched another inch without breaking.
"History is the fiction we invent to persuade ourselves that events are knowable and that life has order and direction. That’s why events are always reinterpreted when values change. We need new versions of history to allow for our current prejudices."
//Calvin and Hobbes
I've taken all the steps that I could, that I needed to. And now it's no longer in my hands. So keep your side of the bargain, return what belongs to me and then we're done.
"It's not my story anymore: whenever I speak about the past now, I feel as if I were talking about something that has nothing to do with me. All that remains in the present are the voice, the presence, and the importance of fulfilling my mission. I don't regret difficulties I experienced; I think they helped me to become the person I am today."
//Paul Coelho; The Zahir
That was a hard, cold way of reminding me why I need to get up and resolve to place a seal upon my heart each and every day. And of course, I needed it. Needed to remember why I put everything down to run after you and why some things are better left out of sight, out of mind. Step by step, until there are only two more steps to go. You never make it easy for me because you know this is my area of weakness. But I know that you put me through it because it grows my character and one day I will be complete. Slowly, steadily, surely.
"There’s always another storm. It’s the way the world works. Snowstorms, rainstorms, windstorms, sandstorms, and firestorms. Some are fierce and others are small. You have to deal with each one separately, but you need to keep an eye on whats brewing for tomorrow."
//Maria V. Snyder; Fire Study
I didn't have a totally awesome or super chillax week eight. Afterall, this is life in SMU haha. But on the whole, I enjoyed the time I had to catch up on some stuff that's been on my backlog forever and I got some free time to feed my growing kpop addiction as well hahaha! But the highlight has got to be thursday, where we had a superamazing Japanese lunch, watched a really silly movie and had the time to catch up with people we haven't seen in a while. I think I can stay high on the awesomeness of that day and use a little bit of it to tide me through the rest of the term. Now, back to work!
"I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand... We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. Most of all we love and want to be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love. For wanderers, dreamers, and lovers, for lonely men and women who dare to ask of life everything good and beautiful. It is for those who are too gentle to live among wolves."
//James Kavanagh; There Are Men Too Gentle to Live Among Wolves
It always takes some effort and getting used to. And just when I thought I was getting better at it, things happen that tell me that I'm not making as much progress as I hoped I would be. Oh wells, in the first place, these are not things that will work because of effort alone. Maybe it's because I worry too much. I should just let things take their natural course haha.
So much easier said than done.
crunch crunch.
"Just remember that the things you put into your head are there forever," he said. "You might want to think about that."
"You forget some things, dont you?" "Yes. You forget what you want to remember and you remember what you want to forget.""
//Cormac Mccarthy; On the Road
This week is really a crunch week like nothing I've experienced before. One research paper and one presentation deadline followed by another research paper and written submissions deadlines and a final year exam in the following week. It's like everyone decided to hit you the hardest when you're already down haha. I don't mind the work actually, but I really have a thing against compiling presentation slides! And not because it's hard to do, but because I'm a little OCD about slides. And once I start, I can't stop and I end up spending hours on something that will probably flash past everyone in a few minutes argh.
Haha but I'm trying my best to find joy in everything I do also, cos I know once the term is over, we'll look back and be amazed that the rubber band has stretched another inch without breaking.
"History is the fiction we invent to persuade ourselves that events are knowable and that life has order and direction. That’s why events are always reinterpreted when values change. We need new versions of history to allow for our current prejudices."
//Calvin and Hobbes
I've taken all the steps that I could, that I needed to. And now it's no longer in my hands. So keep your side of the bargain, return what belongs to me and then we're done.
"It's not my story anymore: whenever I speak about the past now, I feel as if I were talking about something that has nothing to do with me. All that remains in the present are the voice, the presence, and the importance of fulfilling my mission. I don't regret difficulties I experienced; I think they helped me to become the person I am today."
//Paul Coelho; The Zahir
That was a hard, cold way of reminding me why I need to get up and resolve to place a seal upon my heart each and every day. And of course, I needed it. Needed to remember why I put everything down to run after you and why some things are better left out of sight, out of mind. Step by step, until there are only two more steps to go. You never make it easy for me because you know this is my area of weakness. But I know that you put me through it because it grows my character and one day I will be complete. Slowly, steadily, surely.
"There’s always another storm. It’s the way the world works. Snowstorms, rainstorms, windstorms, sandstorms, and firestorms. Some are fierce and others are small. You have to deal with each one separately, but you need to keep an eye on whats brewing for tomorrow."
//Maria V. Snyder; Fire Study
I didn't have a totally awesome or super chillax week eight. Afterall, this is life in SMU haha. But on the whole, I enjoyed the time I had to catch up on some stuff that's been on my backlog forever and I got some free time to feed my growing kpop addiction as well hahaha! But the highlight has got to be thursday, where we had a superamazing Japanese lunch, watched a really silly movie and had the time to catch up with people we haven't seen in a while. I think I can stay high on the awesomeness of that day and use a little bit of it to tide me through the rest of the term. Now, back to work!
"I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand... We searchers are ambitious only for life itself, for everything beautiful it can provide. Most of all we love and want to be loved. We want to live in a relationship that will not impede our wandering, nor prevent our search, nor lock us in prison walls; that will take us for what little we have to give. We do not want to prove ourselves to another or compete for love. For wanderers, dreamers, and lovers, for lonely men and women who dare to ask of life everything good and beautiful. It is for those who are too gentle to live among wolves."
//James Kavanagh; There Are Men Too Gentle to Live Among Wolves
It always takes some effort and getting used to. And just when I thought I was getting better at it, things happen that tell me that I'm not making as much progress as I hoped I would be. Oh wells, in the first place, these are not things that will work because of effort alone. Maybe it's because I worry too much. I should just let things take their natural course haha.
