"I wish in the city of your heart you would let me be the street where you walk when you are most yourself. I imagine the houses: It has been raining, but the rain is done and the children kept home have begun opening their doors."
//Robley Wilson
I'm not done with the week yet. There are so many more things that need to be done. Like sitting in a coffee house with my books for hours on end, like listening to acoustic guitars and gravelly voices in dark, quiet spots with best friends and amazing food, like going for a night drive with my ipod for miles and miles to stretch until I wind up alongside the beach front in the early morning. But still, I loved the moments that I had to spare. The moments when I discovered chaos, uncertainty and quarks and realised the immense possibility of this world, the moments when we winded up having ice-cream talking of the things we had not yet left behind, the moments where we shrieked our hearts out in the absolute neurotic mess of a psycho-ballet film.
704 odd days before we move on again. I can't bear to let go, just yet.
17 February 2011
;10:59 "This town don't feel mine; I'm fast to get away far.
It feels good to know you're all mine.
Now drive me far away; I don't care where, just far away."
//Deftones; Be quiet and drive (far away)
I love driving, I really do. So I'm ultra-excited that I've finally got my license! No more going down the long way to the awful Ubi driving centre, no more winding through the awful circuit lanes, no more nagging from my driving uncle, woohoo :) I think I love driving so much that my dears, I would drive you all day and night to wherever you wanted to go, as long as you asked me to.
Now, just get me a suzukiswiftasthewind, ice green please!
"Life is funny, isn't it? Just when you think you've got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about it and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is suddenly west and you're lost."
//Cecelia Ahern; Where Rainbows End
The lessons you teach are never easy. They always take time, always require humility and almost always involve some breaking of heart. And despite all the pain of being moulded into your peg, I realise that the most important thing is how your lessons have the tendency to cut straight through everything else that is happening in my life to show me who and what I need to hold closest to my heart. And whenever I am going through these lessons, I am always forced to ask myself, how important is everything else in the light of the plan that is set out for me?
So time and again, I am reminded. That some things come together for a reason, fall apart for a reason, stay apart for a reason. That other things will come in for a reason, stay there for a reason and grow into better things for a reason.
Where I am now is a good place to be. Whatever else that I cannot change, I give it to you.
"I hear You say, 'My love is over. It's underneath. It's inside. It's in between. The times you doubt Me, when you can't feel. The times that you question, 'Is this for real?' The times you're broken. The times that you mend. The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.
Well, My love is over, it's underneath. It's inside, it's in between. These times you're healing, and when your heart breaks. The times that you feel like you're falling from grace. The times you're hurting. The times that you heal. The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal. The times of confusion, in chaos and pain. I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame. I'm there through your heartache. I'm there in the storm. My love I will keep you, by My pow'r alone. I don't care where you fall, where you have been. I'll never forsake you, My love never ends. It never ends."
"I wish in the city of your heart you would let me be the street where you walk when you are most yourself. I imagine the houses: It has been raining, but the rain is done and the children kept home have begun opening their doors."
//Robley Wilson
I'm not done with the week yet. There are so many more things that need to be done. Like sitting in a coffee house with my books for hours on end, like listening to acoustic guitars and gravelly voices in dark, quiet spots with best friends and amazing food, like going for a night drive with my ipod for miles and miles to stretch until I wind up alongside the beach front in the early morning. But still, I loved the moments that I had to spare. The moments when I discovered chaos, uncertainty and quarks and realised the immense possibility of this world, the moments when we winded up having ice-cream talking of the things we had not yet left behind, the moments where we shrieked our hearts out in the absolute neurotic mess of a psycho-ballet film.
704 odd days before we move on again. I can't bear to let go, just yet.
"This town don't feel mine; I'm fast to get away far.
It feels good to know you're all mine.
Now drive me far away; I don't care where, just far away."
//Deftones; Be quiet and drive (far away)
I love driving, I really do. So I'm ultra-excited that I've finally got my license! No more going down the long way to the awful Ubi driving centre, no more winding through the awful circuit lanes, no more nagging from my driving uncle, woohoo :) I think I love driving so much that my dears, I would drive you all day and night to wherever you wanted to go, as long as you asked me to.
Now, just get me a suzukiswiftasthewind, ice green please!
"Life is funny, isn't it? Just when you think you've got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about it and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is suddenly west and you're lost."
//Cecelia Ahern; Where Rainbows End
The lessons you teach are never easy. They always take time, always require humility and almost always involve some breaking of heart. And despite all the pain of being moulded into your peg, I realise that the most important thing is how your lessons have the tendency to cut straight through everything else that is happening in my life to show me who and what I need to hold closest to my heart. And whenever I am going through these lessons, I am always forced to ask myself, how important is everything else in the light of the plan that is set out for me?
So time and again, I am reminded. That some things come together for a reason, fall apart for a reason, stay apart for a reason. That other things will come in for a reason, stay there for a reason and grow into better things for a reason.
Where I am now is a good place to be. Whatever else that I cannot change, I give it to you.
"I hear You say, 'My love is over. It's underneath. It's inside. It's in between. The times you doubt Me, when you can't feel. The times that you question, 'Is this for real?' The times you're broken. The times that you mend. The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.
Well, My love is over, it's underneath. It's inside, it's in between. These times you're healing, and when your heart breaks. The times that you feel like you're falling from grace. The times you're hurting. The times that you heal. The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal. The times of confusion, in chaos and pain. I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame. I'm there through your heartache. I'm there in the storm. My love I will keep you, by My pow'r alone. I don't care where you fall, where you have been. I'll never forsake you, My love never ends. It never ends."
