"As the Scriptures say, “A man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one.” This is a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one." //Ephesians 5:31-32
We officially graduated from the marriage prep course today with a celebratory dinner at the SIA sports club! And what an amazing journey it has been, going through the five sessions, tackling the bible studies and homework together, getting to know other couples and hearing their wonderful stories and having opportunities to discuss issues we never thought we would have to deal with as a couple. Over the past five weeks, we've heard and learnt so much from all the couples we've met and I finally understand what people mean when they say that every couple is unique and beautiful and have their own story to tell. My biggest takeaway from the course has been a fresh perspective on just how deep and beautiful the marriage covenant is, that it is akin to the relationship between Jesus Christ and the church. That when you take your marriage vows, it is the beginning of something selfless, sacred and irrevocable, until death. That when you vow to have and to hold from this day forward, there is nothing that should come between these vows; not circumstances, not poverty, not illness, not until death do you part. And while I always knew these words, I never understood how central these vows were to the marriage. That truly on your wedding day, nothing else matters as much as the moment when you stand before man and God, to swear these words to each other. More than that, I've also learnt that the wedding is only the first step to a journey of a lifetime. A lifetime where there will definitely be pain and struggle but also immense joy and companionship. And now, I can begin to understand more of what it actually means to be married. That it will not just be about a lavish wedding or a exotic honeymoon, but it will be about loving God together, doing life together and supporting each other in every way possible. Thank you for beginning this journey with me. I look forward to walking it to the end with you.
"Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops; What if Your healing comes through tears; What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near What if the trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?" //Laura Story; Blessings There are so many emotions, memories and other things tangled up in this, that I think we have not fully comprehended the extent of the decision that we have to make. But I've made a decision to submit, and I have to trust that God will lead us to where he wants to go, do what he wants us to do. Even when the night is dark, be the light by the side of our feet. Even when we cannot see the road ahead, be our eyes. Even when the going get tough, be our feet to carry us through.
Sometimes I feel like my heart will burst from all the waiting. The waiting for things to happen, the waiting for the future to come. But then I remember you make all things beautiful in your time. So I hope, and I turn my face towards you, knowing that even though so many things are up in the air now, sooner or later, you will make this a beautiful journey.
"You fill the sun with morning light; You bent the moon to lead the night; You clothed the lilies bright and beautiful; You're already all I need, already everything that I could hope for You've already set me, already making me more like you." //Christy Nockels; Already All I Need This has been my season of scattering stones. Of realising that sometimes God makes people and things fall together in a perfect way for a beautiful moment in time. But moments in time do not last forever and once our season is over, it will be time to move on to new things. After all, in life, everyone makes their own decisions and though it will be with great sadness that we say goodbye, there are better things ahead for each of us. I believe, I sincerely believe. Thank you for everything, while it lasted. The times we had were wonderful and beautiful. xoxo.
"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace." //Ecclesiastes 3:2-8 (NIV Version) And now, more and more, I'm certain that it is the time for moving on. That we have had a wonderful few years of building, growing and sowing together but now is the time when we will have to go on to new things. At the end of the discussion, David asked us several times whether we feel sad. After thinking about it, I don't think the right feeling is sadness. I think we can look back on the good times with fondness but also look to the future with excitement and anticipation. Afterall, the cell is for the people. The people are not made for the cell. So when the time has come for us to scatter stones, we will do so. At the same time, we can also move on to the new things that we are called to do. All along, I have known that I was called to do highlife cell ministry for two groups of people. That when these people reached the point of being ready for a new season in their lives, it would be time for me to move on as well. Now, I can sense that this point is here and I will have to learn how to let go and move on too. There are no regrets, no wasted time, none at all. For a time and place, we were called to be together and we will forever be brothers and sisters in Christ no matter where we move on to.
"I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, And in His word, I put my hope. I wait for the Lord, More than watchmen wait for the morning, More than watchmen wait for the morning." //Psalm 130:6 (NIV Version)
Last week, Elder Andrew Goh asked a very important question. Something which struck me when I first heard it and then stayed with me throughout much of this week. He said, "What if the things that are important to you are actually not important to God?" And the more I thought about it, the more I realised how crucial and timely this question was. That in the end, the most important thing is to wait upon God and discover his intents and purposes for me. That I always want to be walking in the centre of His will, doing the things that He calls me to do. That I don't want to spend my life building something that I thought was important, only to find out that it didn't matter that much to God in the end. So I wait for you once again. I wait for you to speak, to lead, to guide. And as I wait, I call upon your name, declare that you are Jehovah Nissi, God my Banner. You will never fail me.
"Restore our fortunes, Lord, like streams in the Negev. Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them." //Psalm 126:1-2 (NIV Version) And I'm still slowly learning all that there is to me, to you, to all that we are. Of the nooks, crannies and crevices where we put the things that are important to us. Of the pasts we've endured, the present things we struggle with, the future we're hoping for. Of learning to hope again and be secure in you and in God. I know we can only do the best we can with the pitfalls we've anticipated. But I choose to believe this time, it's different. This time, you've made the commitment and I entrust it to God. This time, we'll make it through. By your grace, we'll make it through.
"Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart." //Psalm 37:3-4 (NIV Version) Now it feels like the end of one part of a journey, the months when you were all that I had and it felt like the light at the end of the tunnel was far away and would never come. But God, you are good and your promises to your children hold true until the end. That at the end of all my waiting, there he was as you said he would be. And I know he's not perfect and neither am I. That there will be differences, that there will be dilemmas, that there will be difficulties along the way. But God you know us better than we know ourselves. And you are always in control. So I commit this into your hands and ask that you lead us and guide us. That as we make our announcements as we seek blessings, as we set our plans for the future, come and be in the centre of it all. Let all that we are, all that we do bring glory to your name. Thank you and thank you for your faithfulness towards me, there are no words that can express my love and gratitude towards you.
"For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know them full well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth." //Psalm 139:13-15 (NIV Version) Maybe it's true that this issue has to be finally resolved one more time before March, that this is one final hurdle that I have to leap across, one more bird that I have to stone and bury before the dust settles and I move forward. I guess this issue has held me back for long enough, and I cannot allow it to be the splinter in my heel any longer. It's truly like what Ps Lionel Goh said this morning, my identity and self-worth is in the knowledge that I am a child of God. If I stand firm and claim on that identity, knowing that God loves me for who I am, then I need not fear the negativity that sometimes creeps up or the expectations of other people that will come. But I can claim His promises for me with full joy, knowing that this is what he planned for me and that it will be more than amazing. So help me get over this stumbling stone one last time. Help me stand on your promise that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, that in you I am perfect and I need not prove myself, because in your presence is fullness of grace and approval. Fall down. Stand up again.
"You are the Rock on which I stand; By Your grace it is well. My hope is sure in Christ my saviour; It is well with my soul." //It is well with my soul; Hillsong Chapel Live Perhaps you saw me when I began this journey six years ago. When I didn't know anything about how this worked, when I didn't know where the end point was, when all I could do was feel my way down along this path. Along the way, I made so many mistakes, fell down and scrapped my knees over and over again. But you were always patient, always waiting for me to catch up to you. And sometimes, I have to admit that the going was really tough. To go through the breaking, the healing, the relentless re-moulding. Then to receive your promise and understand that walking in alignment with your plans was what you intended from the start. Not that everything fell together straight away. And as I built my room of waiting and waited for the morning, there were many times of discouragement and disappointment. That a lot of times, it felt like it was just me and you. The only who understood all my struggles, who walked with me through all my ups and downs, who knew why I was holding on, no way of letting go. And then in your wonderful timing, you cause all things to come together. That while I was unaware, you were moving behind the scenes to fulfil your promise to me, to show me the fullness of all that you are. To remind me that you are the Rock on which I stand. In you, I have everything that I need. So thank you for bringing us to each other, for leading us thus far. Thank you for every conversation that we've had, every past hurt that we've shared, every hope and dream that we're looking forward to. Help us to commit every thing into your hands and trust that you will move us forward in your timing. May whatever that we do honour and glorify you. I place my heart in your hands, the safest that it could ever be. And I ask that you keep it there until someone who is worthy to share it comes along. It's never gonna be easy, but I know this time it will be worth it.
"The Lord is my strength and my shield. My heart trusted in Him and I am helped; Therefore my heart greatly rejoices and with my song I will praise Him. The Lord is their strength and He is the saving refuge of His anointed." Psalm 28:7-8 I think it's true that in the end it's about making a choice to love and to commit. To realise that one day, there will come a time when the euphoria and the emotions have passed and then it will be about loving and accepting the person that you commit to. So that love is not just all about the feelings, but it is also a decision. A conscious decision to stand by and take fully all that the person is and deciding that your commitment to each other will not change, no matter what, come what may. At this point, give it time, give it space and be still for a spell. So that when it's time to walk that way, we want to walk it well.
"If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do." //James 1:5-7 (NIV Version)
One of the things that has been on my mind is the part about preparing a room that we talked about in camp. In that segment, Ps. Gardener talked about doing something in the physical realm that is a declaration of faith for things that have not yet come to pass. Basically, you prepare a room for something in your life now, that you believe will come to pass in the future. He gave us some time to think about it and write it down on a piece of paper to remind ourselves. And when I heard that and I opened my notebook, one area of my life immediately came to my mind. One area that I had not really thought about deeply for a while. And I asked God, well what do you want to tell me about this? And amazingly, I received a really detailed and specific image and words for that area of my life. At first, I didn't know what to do it with it. I've asked and prayed about this before but there has been no direct answer. Until this, until now. I've prayed about it after camp and asked for confirmation. And now, I believe that I will receive my confirmations this week. And this is my act of obedience, putting it here as an act of courage and faith. I'm hopeful, excited and nervous all at the same time. But I also know without a doubt, that my God is good and that I've tasted of his sweetness for the past 23 years of my life. He will not let me down. All I ask is that he steady my heart, keep me focused on Him as I walk this chapter of my life with Him.
10 February 2012
;22:43 "I feel like my life is so scattered right now. Like it’s all the small pieces of paper and someone’s turned on the fan. But, talking to you makes me feel like the fan’s been turned off for a little bit. Like things could actually make sense. You completely unscatter me, and I appreciate that so much."
//John Green; Will Grayson, Will Grayson
Hmm, I still think that I'm a person of milestones. And when I've reached that milestone, it's a bit frustrating to have someone tell you that by the way, you're not there yet, please finish up this last thing before it's all done. As CX said, I finished my 2.4km run awesomely to the best of my ability, came to the finish line, only to have someone say, oh you're duty-bound do this extra two more rounds before we can count this as officially finished. But all the complaining aside, I know that I'm extremely blessed to have this opportunity to go there and show others what we've done for the last six months so thank you for giving it to me.
Even if it's just two more rounds, I will do my best.
"Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere. We can’t always understand them, but we have to trust in them. I know you want to question everything, but sometimes it pays to just have a little faith."
//Lauren Kate; Fallen
And just when I thought it was all over, you never fail to find a way to surprise me. What should I do about this open door? I'm not sure yet but I don't want my emotions to run amok and stand in the way of doing your will. So let me sleep on it and come to a decision tomorrow. Let my decision be what you would want me to do.
"As the Scriptures say, “A man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one.” This is a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one." //Ephesians 5:31-32
We officially graduated from the marriage prep course today with a celebratory dinner at the SIA sports club! And what an amazing journey it has been, going through the five sessions, tackling the bible studies and homework together, getting to know other couples and hearing their wonderful stories and having opportunities to discuss issues we never thought we would have to deal with as a couple. Over the past five weeks, we've heard and learnt so much from all the couples we've met and I finally understand what people mean when they say that every couple is unique and beautiful and have their own story to tell. My biggest takeaway from the course has been a fresh perspective on just how deep and beautiful the marriage covenant is, that it is akin to the relationship between Jesus Christ and the church. That when you take your marriage vows, it is the beginning of something selfless, sacred and irrevocable, until death. That when you vow to have and to hold from this day forward, there is nothing that should come between these vows; not circumstances, not poverty, not illness, not until death do you part. And while I always knew these words, I never understood how central these vows were to the marriage. That truly on your wedding day, nothing else matters as much as the moment when you stand before man and God, to swear these words to each other. More than that, I've also learnt that the wedding is only the first step to a journey of a lifetime. A lifetime where there will definitely be pain and struggle but also immense joy and companionship. And now, I can begin to understand more of what it actually means to be married. That it will not just be about a lavish wedding or a exotic honeymoon, but it will be about loving God together, doing life together and supporting each other in every way possible. Thank you for beginning this journey with me. I look forward to walking it to the end with you.
"Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops; What if Your healing comes through tears; What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near What if the trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise?" //Laura Story; Blessings There are so many emotions, memories and other things tangled up in this, that I think we have not fully comprehended the extent of the decision that we have to make. But I've made a decision to submit, and I have to trust that God will lead us to where he wants to go, do what he wants us to do. Even when the night is dark, be the light by the side of our feet. Even when we cannot see the road ahead, be our eyes. Even when the going get tough, be our feet to carry us through.
Sometimes I feel like my heart will burst from all the waiting. The waiting for things to happen, the waiting for the future to come. But then I remember you make all things beautiful in your time. So I hope, and I turn my face towards you, knowing that even though so many things are up in the air now, sooner or later, you will make this a beautiful journey.
"You fill the sun with morning light; You bent the moon to lead the night; You clothed the lilies bright and beautiful; You're already all I need, already everything that I could hope for You've already set me, already making me more like you." //Christy Nockels; Already All I Need This has been my season of scattering stones. Of realising that sometimes God makes people and things fall together in a perfect way for a beautiful moment in time. But moments in time do not last forever and once our season is over, it will be time to move on to new things. After all, in life, everyone makes their own decisions and though it will be with great sadness that we say goodbye, there are better things ahead for each of us. I believe, I sincerely believe. Thank you for everything, while it lasted. The times we had were wonderful and beautiful. xoxo.
"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace." //Ecclesiastes 3:2-8 (NIV Version) And now, more and more, I'm certain that it is the time for moving on. That we have had a wonderful few years of building, growing and sowing together but now is the time when we will have to go on to new things. At the end of the discussion, David asked us several times whether we feel sad. After thinking about it, I don't think the right feeling is sadness. I think we can look back on the good times with fondness but also look to the future with excitement and anticipation. Afterall, the cell is for the people. The people are not made for the cell. So when the time has come for us to scatter stones, we will do so. At the same time, we can also move on to the new things that we are called to do. All along, I have known that I was called to do highlife cell ministry for two groups of people. That when these people reached the point of being ready for a new season in their lives, it would be time for me to move on as well. Now, I can sense that this point is here and I will have to learn how to let go and move on too. There are no regrets, no wasted time, none at all. For a time and place, we were called to be together and we will forever be brothers and sisters in Christ no matter where we move on to.
"I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, And in His word, I put my hope. I wait for the Lord, More than watchmen wait for the morning, More than watchmen wait for the morning." //Psalm 130:6 (NIV Version)
Last week, Elder Andrew Goh asked a very important question. Something which struck me when I first heard it and then stayed with me throughout much of this week. He said, "What if the things that are important to you are actually not important to God?" And the more I thought about it, the more I realised how crucial and timely this question was. That in the end, the most important thing is to wait upon God and discover his intents and purposes for me. That I always want to be walking in the centre of His will, doing the things that He calls me to do. That I don't want to spend my life building something that I thought was important, only to find out that it didn't matter that much to God in the end. So I wait for you once again. I wait for you to speak, to lead, to guide. And as I wait, I call upon your name, declare that you are Jehovah Nissi, God my Banner. You will never fail me.
"Restore our fortunes, Lord, like streams in the Negev. Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them." //Psalm 126:1-2 (NIV Version) And I'm still slowly learning all that there is to me, to you, to all that we are. Of the nooks, crannies and crevices where we put the things that are important to us. Of the pasts we've endured, the present things we struggle with, the future we're hoping for. Of learning to hope again and be secure in you and in God. I know we can only do the best we can with the pitfalls we've anticipated. But I choose to believe this time, it's different. This time, you've made the commitment and I entrust it to God. This time, we'll make it through. By your grace, we'll make it through.
"Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart." //Psalm 37:3-4 (NIV Version) Now it feels like the end of one part of a journey, the months when you were all that I had and it felt like the light at the end of the tunnel was far away and would never come. But God, you are good and your promises to your children hold true until the end. That at the end of all my waiting, there he was as you said he would be. And I know he's not perfect and neither am I. That there will be differences, that there will be dilemmas, that there will be difficulties along the way. But God you know us better than we know ourselves. And you are always in control. So I commit this into your hands and ask that you lead us and guide us. That as we make our announcements as we seek blessings, as we set our plans for the future, come and be in the centre of it all. Let all that we are, all that we do bring glory to your name. Thank you and thank you for your faithfulness towards me, there are no words that can express my love and gratitude towards you.
"For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know them full well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth." //Psalm 139:13-15 (NIV Version) Maybe it's true that this issue has to be finally resolved one more time before March, that this is one final hurdle that I have to leap across, one more bird that I have to stone and bury before the dust settles and I move forward. I guess this issue has held me back for long enough, and I cannot allow it to be the splinter in my heel any longer. It's truly like what Ps Lionel Goh said this morning, my identity and self-worth is in the knowledge that I am a child of God. If I stand firm and claim on that identity, knowing that God loves me for who I am, then I need not fear the negativity that sometimes creeps up or the expectations of other people that will come. But I can claim His promises for me with full joy, knowing that this is what he planned for me and that it will be more than amazing. So help me get over this stumbling stone one last time. Help me stand on your promise that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, that in you I am perfect and I need not prove myself, because in your presence is fullness of grace and approval. Fall down. Stand up again.
"You are the Rock on which I stand; By Your grace it is well. My hope is sure in Christ my saviour; It is well with my soul." //It is well with my soul; Hillsong Chapel Live Perhaps you saw me when I began this journey six years ago. When I didn't know anything about how this worked, when I didn't know where the end point was, when all I could do was feel my way down along this path. Along the way, I made so many mistakes, fell down and scrapped my knees over and over again. But you were always patient, always waiting for me to catch up to you. And sometimes, I have to admit that the going was really tough. To go through the breaking, the healing, the relentless re-moulding. Then to receive your promise and understand that walking in alignment with your plans was what you intended from the start. Not that everything fell together straight away. And as I built my room of waiting and waited for the morning, there were many times of discouragement and disappointment. That a lot of times, it felt like it was just me and you. The only who understood all my struggles, who walked with me through all my ups and downs, who knew why I was holding on, no way of letting go. And then in your wonderful timing, you cause all things to come together. That while I was unaware, you were moving behind the scenes to fulfil your promise to me, to show me the fullness of all that you are. To remind me that you are the Rock on which I stand. In you, I have everything that I need. So thank you for bringing us to each other, for leading us thus far. Thank you for every conversation that we've had, every past hurt that we've shared, every hope and dream that we're looking forward to. Help us to commit every thing into your hands and trust that you will move us forward in your timing. May whatever that we do honour and glorify you. I place my heart in your hands, the safest that it could ever be. And I ask that you keep it there until someone who is worthy to share it comes along. It's never gonna be easy, but I know this time it will be worth it.
"The Lord is my strength and my shield. My heart trusted in Him and I am helped; Therefore my heart greatly rejoices and with my song I will praise Him. The Lord is their strength and He is the saving refuge of His anointed." Psalm 28:7-8 I think it's true that in the end it's about making a choice to love and to commit. To realise that one day, there will come a time when the euphoria and the emotions have passed and then it will be about loving and accepting the person that you commit to. So that love is not just all about the feelings, but it is also a decision. A conscious decision to stand by and take fully all that the person is and deciding that your commitment to each other will not change, no matter what, come what may. At this point, give it time, give it space and be still for a spell. So that when it's time to walk that way, we want to walk it well.
"If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do." //James 1:5-7 (NIV Version)
One of the things that has been on my mind is the part about preparing a room that we talked about in camp. In that segment, Ps. Gardener talked about doing something in the physical realm that is a declaration of faith for things that have not yet come to pass. Basically, you prepare a room for something in your life now, that you believe will come to pass in the future. He gave us some time to think about it and write it down on a piece of paper to remind ourselves. And when I heard that and I opened my notebook, one area of my life immediately came to my mind. One area that I had not really thought about deeply for a while. And I asked God, well what do you want to tell me about this? And amazingly, I received a really detailed and specific image and words for that area of my life. At first, I didn't know what to do it with it. I've asked and prayed about this before but there has been no direct answer. Until this, until now. I've prayed about it after camp and asked for confirmation. And now, I believe that I will receive my confirmations this week. And this is my act of obedience, putting it here as an act of courage and faith. I'm hopeful, excited and nervous all at the same time. But I also know without a doubt, that my God is good and that I've tasted of his sweetness for the past 23 years of my life. He will not let me down. All I ask is that he steady my heart, keep me focused on Him as I walk this chapter of my life with Him.
"I feel like my life is so scattered right now. Like it’s all the small pieces of paper and someone’s turned on the fan. But, talking to you makes me feel like the fan’s been turned off for a little bit. Like things could actually make sense. You completely unscatter me, and I appreciate that so much."
//John Green; Will Grayson, Will Grayson
Hmm, I still think that I'm a person of milestones. And when I've reached that milestone, it's a bit frustrating to have someone tell you that by the way, you're not there yet, please finish up this last thing before it's all done. As CX said, I finished my 2.4km run awesomely to the best of my ability, came to the finish line, only to have someone say, oh you're duty-bound do this extra two more rounds before we can count this as officially finished. But all the complaining aside, I know that I'm extremely blessed to have this opportunity to go there and show others what we've done for the last six months so thank you for giving it to me.
Even if it's just two more rounds, I will do my best.
"Sometimes beautiful things come into our lives out of nowhere. We can’t always understand them, but we have to trust in them. I know you want to question everything, but sometimes it pays to just have a little faith."
//Lauren Kate; Fallen
And just when I thought it was all over, you never fail to find a way to surprise me. What should I do about this open door? I'm not sure yet but I don't want my emotions to run amok and stand in the way of doing your will. So let me sleep on it and come to a decision tomorrow. Let my decision be what you would want me to do.
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